Day 20 – Second chance

“Where is another God like you, who pardons the guilt of the remnant, overlooking the sins of his special people? You will not stay angry with your people forever, because you delight in showing unfailing love.” Micah 7:18

Rene continues from where she woke in the hospital, “I told them I had a miscarriage, but after tests, they knew I was lying, and I couldn’t keep the lie anymore, so I confessed. The doctor immediately called the police and told me they would be there the next day to arrest me. I cannot remember how many bags of blood I received, but I do remember that night I was wrestling with God. I saw flashes of darkness and light during the whole night while I was pleading and praying, vowing to God that if He gave me a second chance…

The next morning the authorities came and gave me one phone call which I used to phone my aunt. Because even if I was an adult woman, I feared my mother. When she arrived, I told them everything and my aunt and nephew (who was in the police service) went out to look for the baby but found an empty field. They didn’t give up and went to the nearest police station who informed them the baby was taken to hospital under police protection.

I was granted the opportunity to see my baby and my heart broke in a thousand pieces when I saw the name card said “Unknown”. How could I have done this to my child? It was only then that I was told it is a little girl. I named her Tamara Faith. I was charged and the baby was to be placed in the care of a safe house until the court decided the outcome.

The day I was discharged I heard the nurses gossip about me and I do not know where I got the courage from but I walked up to them and said that yes, it was me they were gossiping about. I couldn’t explain why I did what I did, but I could only tell them about the fear and that when you are in a difficult situation, you do not think logically.” To be continued.

Prayer: Father, thank You for Your amazing grace and when we think we are so lost, the price Jesus paid was enough for us to be welcomed into Your embrace. Lord, when reading this testimony, we realize that even then, You had a beautiful plan. Thank You for giving us grace. Amen.